Weigh in weight
I still can't believe I am doing this........ Week 1 (2.3 Kilo Loss)
This is my journey
Sunday – 9th September
Weighed in at 96.5kg and became disheartened that the weight I lost last year (around 16kg) had basically all gone back on (minus 2.4kg as I was 98.9kg). My measurements surprised me as I don’t ever remember them being so high and again I was shocked and disappointed as to how I let myself get that big again. I am so nervous, frightened and definitely out of my comfort zone publishing my progress in my journey to the world via social media, nothing like going to the extreme to be held accountable :-/
Went out to lunch with the family as we have many birthdays at the beginning of September and we were away in Melbourne for 2 weeks prior to that. Mum’s birthday, Leisa’s birthday, my nephew’s birthday, Father’s Day and also my dear grandma passed away on the Friday (7 th Sept) so was a good opportunity to celebrate her life too. It was a good challenge to start off my better choice journey as going out for meals is always hard. I didn’t want to not have a drink, so instead of choosing the cider or beer that I would normally have, I had a vodka, lime and soda in an effort to make a better choice.
Leisa and I always share our meals, so we ordered a meat sharing plate and a nice big salad.
Although there was bread and chips on the plate, I didn’t touch them and stuck to the protein and salad instead. As it was a birthday celebration, there was cake and I felt I had to have the obligatory piece. I chose to have a very small piece instead of the usual size I would have.
This journey is all about better choices and if I really feel like a drink or a piece of cake, think how I can make a healthier choice in both those cases. Its not about depriving yourself of fun and enjoyment, it is about being aware of everything you are doing and seeing what better choices are available.
Today was the first day back at work, which was a challenge after having 2 weeks off. I find it easier to make better choices when at work as you keep busy so not to think about food so much. Breakfast and lunch was good and healthy with snacks being a piece of fruit, a couple of nuts and some dried apricots. I went for a ½ hour walk after work, which was beautiful weather to do so and loved being out in the sunshine. I felt pretty good today and motivated to keep it going.
Today is Leisas birthday, Happy birthday sweetie. Off to work I go again, breakfast, lunch and
snacks again are healthy and yummy. I am struggling a little bit today with coming down from sugar and carbs, I didn’t sleep that well last night and it’s coming up to that time of the month (Too much information I know) so I am a bit grumpy today. The weather isn’t great so I was going to pass on going for a walk (Leisa told me I should aim for 4 walks this week) so I still had days up my sleeve to not do anything.
Leisa comes home from work and said about coming into the back studio to do a circuit she has set up because of the weather being bad. I am trying so hard to not say no to things as I am trying to change my mindset, so I felt obliged to have to join her. So, from being told to start slow this week with 4 walks to now amping it up to a HIIT circuit training on day 3, needless to say, Jen was a very, very grumpy monkey. Near the end I had enough and stormed off swearing saying I had enough. I felt deflated and useless and definitely not in the motivated state I was in yesterday. Granted my emotional and mental state weren’t amazing to start with due to all the reasons I mentioned before, but I also felt cheated. I had in my mind and knew what I had to do on the first week, and to have to do this took all the enjoyment away from the journey. I have a year of this, I don’t have to be flogged on day 3, I want to work up to it, so I feel like I have achieved something, not failed at it.
After having discussions with Leisa and telling her how I felt, tears from me included, we settled on an agreement. I have never been a gym person, I don’t see the point, even going for walks around the block and back seems pointless, but I know I have to do it to get fitter. What I do like to do, and I told Leisa this, is to change things up.
I love playing sports, whether it is a hit of tennis, throwing the frisbee, kicking the footy or shooting hoops, these are fun exercises that I enjoy doing. If we can mix it up I will find it much more enjoyable than sitting on a stationary bike going nowhere for 20 minutes. But I also want to feel I’m in charge of my journey, if I feel like amping it up one day, then I will, or if I feel like taking it a bit slower than that is ok too. I need to keep feeling like I am achieving things on my own terms, not because someone made me do stuff I didn’t want to do. This is where the stubborn part of me wants to push back and give up. It was a good lesson for both Leisa and I, I learned I need to use my voice more rather than just bottling it up, and Leisa learned that just because she likes doing something, doesn’t mean everyone else does. LESSON LEARNED!!!
Another day at work, I was so drained from being emotional the day before and I am still struggling with giving up sugar and carbs. There were 2 packets of Tim Tams at work today and I didn’t even think about them, it wasn’t as hard as I thought (yay me :) :) there are even lollies in the lolly jar and again I proudly kept walking by them without temptation.
Another day at work and feeling a bit better today, I got to teach a lecture at University on
Fingerprints, which I have been doing for the last few years and I love it. The weather was great yet again so after parking my scooter near the campus, I made sure to make it a bit of a longer walk, including taking stairs where I didn’t need to. This was my making better choices for the day as to be honest, I am bloody sore from the circuit I angrily did with Leisa on Tuesday, I don’t know how you people love that feeling of soreness, you guys are all weird. All food choices were once again healthy and was a pretty good day today.
I decided instead of riding my scooter in to work that I would walk to the tram and catch that in
instead. Its about a 20-minute walk to the tram from my place and was a beautiful morning walk. I felt much better for doing so. As much as I am not a big fan of public transport, the trip isn’t too long, so I need to suck it up.
The walk home was a bit harder as there was a massive head wind all the way
home, and I was still recovering from the overwhelmingly smelly guy sitting next to me on the tram picking his nose, rolling it and flicking it onto the floor….YUK YUK YUK. I was crammed in by the window, so I couldn’t move even if I wanted to. I felt good though for making that better choice of walking to the tram. Although I won’t do it every day, I will do this at least twice a week.
It works out well too as I am sure many of you equally busy people find it hard sometimes getting home from work then finding the time to then go out again and exercise. With working full time, studying full time and running a business as well, I know I do. So by doing the walk to and from the tram (around 50-minutes in total) the exercise is done for the day, so when I get home I can get straight into the next chore or task awaiting me.
Today we had a visit from our lovely friend, we put on some lunch so need to be mindful of what to eat. Leisa, lovely Leisa, went shopping yesterday on an empty stomach, so there are many delicious temptations in the house such as chocolate, chips, puddings and more. This is always the hardest thing when it is there looking at you every day, I am sure you can all relate. So I need to make sure not to succumb to those temptations and practice the thing I lack the most sometimes….discipline and will power. GAAAAHHHHHH!!!, who invented these things and why is it so hard, ha ha ha...
I did have some yummy cheese though and we cooked a delicious and easy impossible quiche with a big salad, so that is ok in my books. I was able to have some yummy food to take to work that evening too which is always a bonus.
A video Leisa did a while back on the quick quiche we love
There were some ups and downs already, and it is only week 1, but that is to be expected. Remember it is a journey and this includes bumps in the road, uphill battles and detours, but that is what makes it more memorable and more satisfying when we reach our goals. Thanks for following me on my journey. Stay tuned for next week’s “the week that was”.
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